Recently I decided to let go of a few things, and people, that have been keeping me from cleansing myself. At first I was not sure if that was the best way to go, but I had no other starting point. I mean I am already in therapy and know I need help. But I kept hanging on to the people that were weighing on me and I didn’t know why.

Now don’t get me wrong, I really don’t like change, but when I kept looking at the things and people that I thought were suppose to be my friends and not one of them would give me the time of day, then I made the decision to break free. To start the process of detox, and boy this is the hardest thing I have ever had to do.

See I don’t have many friends to begin with and that made it harder to give up them up. See the catch 22 I was in. But the light bulb went off and I prayed for strength and guidance from God to help me make it through this. I was hoping to just have to drink a couple of cups of hot green tea to detox, but NOOOOOOOO! This truly sucks. I feel happy one moment and ready to cry, scream and yell at the next. But you know what I don’t feel like doing…I don’t feel like going and trying to get those “friends” back. I know that I will be a better person for this and that God is with me and wants me to be free of the ways of the past. I am not who they think I am anymore. I am going to be stronger, happier, smarter, more caring and loving all the things they didn’t think I could be or accomplish.

It took me a long time to get to this road that I am on, and I know I have only begun the process. But the freeing of knowing that I am not going this journey alone makes me well up for the challenge. Knowing that God has a plan for me and is guiding me to that plan makes the pain, the challenge, and the long walk ahead worth the trip. I do know the road will not be straight, and I know it will not be smooth. But to break free and live the life I was meant to live well I am willing to walk on a bumpy and curving road.

But you know what…I also know that I do not have to go down the road alone, and for me that is the best travel trip anyone can put in a book. When you travel don’t go alone…travel with God, He can get you there.

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