Archive for February, 2011

Sittin’ on the Dock

I love to sit and listen to the sound of the ocean. There is nothing that is as peaceful as the waves crashing on the shore and the birds “talking” in the air. The world seems at peace at the beach.
It seems that anything is possible there. All problems just seem to disappear and the troubles seem to be small. Oh if we could just harness that and show the rest of the human race. What a wonderful world it would be.
I love to just sit and smell the salty smell the ocean puts off. I know that sounds silly, but it is one of the most wonderful smells in the world. It has a calming effect on people. It does. How many people do you know that are stressed when they sit on the beach? It is almost like small town Mayberry.
If everyone who is in a quarrel, a disagreement, a fight could just spend a week at the beach, soak in the sun, the sounds and the smell, and then maybe we could all get past the nastiness that is going on. Maybe we could all remember that we are part of the same race…the human race.
We should not be afraid to say what we want; we should not be shy about standing up for what we think is right. We should all agree to disagree on things that might make us want to punch the next guy out. But you know the most remarkable thing about that is…we can, we just don’t.
That is where the beach comes in. I think anyone who has an issue with someone else should be required to go to the beach for seven days. In those seven days you cannot say one bad thing about the person you are there with, you can’t even talk to that person for the first two days. You have to do nothing but sit on the beach and listen to the ocean, smell the salt feel the warm ocean breeze on your skin. On the third day you can talk, but with the mindset that you are in a place that makes you calmer and relaxed, no business may be discussed, just a conversation about the weather.
When the fifth day comes you can broche the subject that brought you and your friend to the beach. You can then talk like humans instead of screaming at each other. You can listen instead of being closed minded. You can smell the true meaning of what it is to really be a human being.
By the time it is to go home you may be surprised about how much you two actually agree with one another and all it took was some time…
Sittin’ on the Dock



I haven’t written in while, because I haven’t had the mind or heart too. I have felt overwhelmed with life in the last couple of months of last year that trying to put a meaningful one down was next to impossible. I was doing good to just get up and go.
Things are better now; I have decided that I need to take control of my life back, my family’s life back. We have for too long just did things that were not healthy, not in the best interest of us or for our friends. Nothing bad, just little stupid things, things we should, I should, have known better to do without.
It wasn’t a single thing that led me to this WOW! moment, it was a lot of single things. You know the ones that you should have picked up on to before they became the things that are out of control. My health is suffering because of all of this. I am trying to lose the weight that I gained from all the stress and worrying over the last 6 months. Easier said than done…I put on a lot. Now my blood pressure is high, my head hurts (a lot) my feet are swollen so it is hard for me to do the take charge kind of stuff I want to do. I want to exercise, I have a plan. I want to lose 60lbs by this time next year. I want to be the mom and wife I should have been all along.
Not that the weight was holding me back, I have a lot of other issues that have been having a field day with me for way to long. I have to change the recording inside my head and make me like me not hate me. Taking control of my life would mean that I would have to love the one person that I have never been able to love…ME!
But I can’t do this by myself. I don’t have a lot of friends and the ones that I do have, my besties, live so far away. The ones that live close have no idea what has been happening to me and my family. I would love to reach out and just have someone hold me accountable for making sure I did the right thing today. I walked my 30 minutes, I kept track of my eating, I talk to God and gave glory to Him.
This is not a sprint for me, this is a marathon. I know it will take time for me to rewire the way I think, to get into making sure I spend time with God. I don’t want this to be just another item on my list of things to do…I want to make me a priority and when I can do that, I can make my family and better family.
So I am asking, no begging anyone out there who would like to just help me a little I promise to be open and honest with you about my day, all of it. I can’t grow and learn to do things differently if I don’t have any wisdom and I am looking for all the wisdom I can hold in my little brain. If you want to help me just let me know. Thank you!