I don’t show who I am to people, especially at church. I hide who I am. I know I can’t be the only one who does this, but I am going to have to change that. I do it so people will like me, I know shocker, but I don’t like the person I present. Plus the people who like me already know who I am and what I stand for. I was only able to show one person at the church I go to the real me. She never judged me, never asked me to be any one but who I was. She was like the friends that I grew up with, my best friends…Michelle, Lisa and Cheryl.
Well please allow me to introduce myself…I will start from the beginning. I was born in Ohio, raised in Houston Texas. I am the only girl in a 5 kid home, the second oldest. I remember from an early age my father telling me that I was a mistake; he would later go on to clarify that when I got older. I was not the wanted was the message that came through, kind of sticks with a person. As a family we did have some fun times. Though they were few and far between, and alcohol was usually involved. I did start drinking at a young age. I am always one drink away from being an alcoholic. But I still drink. I do not think alcohol is a sin and it doesn’t say it is in the Bible. I do believe most people do so because they just want to get away. They need to be numb and numb feels good. I know it does to me. I know alcohol is not the answer to ones problems but sometimes it is the only one that will not judge. The only one that makes the day that just happened, the day from HELL, feet better.
If that didn’t shock you the rest of my introduction just might. I was molested by one of my brothers at an early age, was sexually active at a young age and raped at the age of 18. I got pregnant from proceeded to have an abortion. I do believe in a women’s right to choose. I do not believe that abortion should be used as birth control, and that the morning after pill is a good thing. I do not believe that life begins at conception. If adoption was an option then people would not go overseas and adopt. We would not have kids in foster homes right now if people who say they are pro life cared about the kids after they are born. Just because the kid is 2 or 9 or 16 doesn’t mean they don’t need love too. So don’t start talking about adoption until there is a shortage of kids to be adopted.
I also believe in Gay rights. I do believe that a man and a man or a woman and a woman should be allowed the same rights that we have. They should not have to hide in the shadows and be afraid that if they come out the will not be loved by their family or friends…or worse that they would be killed just because they are not like you. I say this because my dad was gay. I think that has a lot to do with how much he hated me. If he would have been able to just be who he was really, then maybe he would not have been such the prick that he was. Yes he is dead and yes I did and still do not like him. I did love him; because he was my dad and that is what you are suppose to do. It is harder to like someone then it is to love someone. Yes if he was able to be who he wanted to be I probably would not be here…but you know what that would be fine. So to everyone out there who can’t see why gays should have the same rights as us, look at the men or women that come out after 20 or 30 years of being married and tear their family apart. They are told they are being selfish…that they are living in sin. You know the only one who can judge our sin is God…and you know something else…God doesn’t make mistakes so why would you say that God doesn’t make gays?
Next…I voted for Obama and will do so again. I believe that the environment is one of the most important things in our lifetime and we are ignoring it. I am a liberal democrat. And very proud of it. I do not force my views on others, but do welcome open and honest discussions about any and all subjects that you wish to talk about. I do not wish to brainwash you to my side and I would appreciate the same on your end. I am a Christian and believe that Jesus is my Lord and Savior. That does not contradict with anything else that I have going on in my life or beliefs. You can be a democrat and a Christian…it is not just a republican dynamic.
So now you have a better look into my world. If you do not wish to talk to me or be my friend anymore that is fine with me…I just ask that you at least give me a heads up. If you have any questions or thoughts you would like to talk to me about, in an open and honest way, then I will be more than happy to have a conversation with you. I do not judge people by who they are, what they believe in or who they happen to love. I judge people by how the treat me and how they treat my family. Thank you to all who have loved and continue to love me for who I am and not what you want me to be. You are all the best. So….
Please allow me to introduce myself.