If OnlyIf only the voices in my head loved me. If only I loved myself. If only I could make friends. If only…
How many of us have these questions and more in our heads, hearts or souls? The church that I attend is doing a sermon on this… and they are putting on the pre sermon screen the “If Only’s” that are putting the “humorous” comments up…because we all know that everyone will only put up the “funny” ones.
I on the other hand have been tweeting the ones that matter to me, probably to most of the people in the church…
I would be happy…If only…the voices in my head would let me…I would be happy…If only…I could get people to see me for me…I would be happy…If Only…I could get a Chicago Style hot dog…that last one is not mine but the kind of “funny” lines they show…
I would be happy if I could find a true and honest person who doesn’t have this whole “God” thing figured out…I would be happy if only I could make a connection to someone else who has questions just like me…I would be happy if only people didn’t judge me before they met me…I would be happy if only people knew how lonely they knew I was because I have trouble making friends.
Those are the “If Only” I wish they would put up…I would not feel so alone, so ashamed of how far I have not come in my walk. If only…two very powerful words that mean more than anyone will ever know. Something to think about the next time you ask some one…
You would be happy…If Only…