Archive for June, 2016



There are things that you have to do to make your illness manageable…meditation, exercising even medicine. Then there’s the things that you do in spite of your illness.
This could be anything, from talking to friends, watching your favorite movie, finding something you Love on sale…with a coupon! Yes you do so many things to enjoy yourself in the midst of some crazy times. And damn it you should. I know it can be hard…and there will be times when you don’t feel like doing anything for yourself. Understandable, but just because of one bad minute, hour, day…etc, doesn’t mean that you stop. You take that time and hold it, embrace it, learn from it then you let that shit go and do what makes you feel less crazy.
There are too many things in life that can control us if we let them. But there are also so many things in life that can build you up and bring you back to life. You just need to take those baby steps and go out and conquer your sidewalk, lawn, grocery store…whatever, just take it slow. Now if you will pardon me…I’m going to Starbucks!


Idle Thoughts

So I don’t know about you, but I have to keep my mind busy. Which is why I have been lax in writing this week. You give me enough time to think…we’ll lets just say it won’t be pretty.
Can you relate? I mean if given half a chance the voices in my head would take over and the “party” would begin. So as I was saying, we all have that one thing that we have to avoid when it comes to the mental condition we have. The thing we would avoid at all cost. Big crowds, small crowds, loud places…quite places. Not having enough to do, having to much to do.
Being scared if you stop to breathe…or stop doing anything, we’ll nothing good can or would come from that. That’s the time when you think of everything ugly, bad…ETC! Could and does happen. Well most of the time it’s not a good thing.
Like I said I’ve been busy this week, not that it always helps. There are days that even keeping busy doesn’t help. Sometimes it just delays the inedible. That you will eventually have to face the darkness that’s in you. The thoughts that scare you…make you wish that you could scrub your brain free.
But you know what? You don’t have to fear those “down” times. You don’t have to keep busy so you won’t be afraid to be alone or be with people. You just have to be willing to sit down not be afraid and have those…Idle Thoughts.