So it has been a long time since I wrote, and I am not going to lie I thought I was in a good place (well I was feeling better and I did have a job) that I thought I don’t need to worry about my mental state anymore, I’m good! Well I lost my job and thought that I may have lost my way. But in all honesty I did loose my way a little. I got angry, really angry, and my voices kept quiet, never a good thing when they won’t talk to you.

Well now I am on a 100 day challenge and it is not just a physical one, although I did slip up in that area as well, it is a mental one as well. I am on day 5 of the challenge and physically I am good. I exercise every day by kickboxing, yoga and walking. But I have not yet tuned into my mental side. Well it is starting to show. The last couple of days have been weird.

I may have mentioned that I lost my job, well I am looking for a new one, but I have a lot of hoops to jump through. Most of them I don’t mind, but I am not going to lie I have gotten angry at not being able to do what I want. Things are not only upside down in my head, they feel upside down in my house. I know that part of the reason why is because my thoughts are not my own. The voices in my head that I talk to have gone quiet and now the ones that are there are wrecking havoc.

So what is a girl to do, well this, for starters.  I made it part of my 100 day challenge to get back to my blogging. It helps me sort out all the areas that can’t be sorted out doing physical activity. So don’t be surprised if I write something and it makes no sense at all, cause I will…I think I have already. But do know that I am going to get back on the horse and write more about having this mental illness that takes everything from you and leaves you curled up in a ball. Take you on my journey, both highs and lows, and hopefully what I share will help someone out there make it through their day.

I will never stop fighting for anyone who needs support, So if you would like to join me on this 100 day challenge then follow me. Come take my hand and you know what, we will make it I swear.

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